I’m 19 years of age and he’s also 19 years. The relationship was short but he was my longtime friend and I miss him so much. But I can’t be around him because I still have feelings. Even though the relationship was hard because he had so much emotional baggage, I still miss him.
He’s a wonderful musician and I actually did the art for his first album. He released his second which has a song about me in it. My name isn’t said but it is obviously about me and even references my art.
It’s actually a really beautiful song about how the next guy should treat me right and give me the love he couldn’t because I deserve the world. It’s like a bittersweet feeling listening to it. It gives some closure, but at the same time, I feel like I will never find the person he wants me to be with. A person who will love me and care for me so much, I don’t feel worth that.
Should I reach out and tell my ex I appreciate the song and thank him for the closure? Or does this just need to be something I don’t listen to and keep to myself? I want to reach out and I keep typing the message but I delete it. He doesn’t have feelings for anymore, or at least he tells me he doesn’t spare me. Either way, there is no chance we will be together again.